Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Disappointment?


Yesterday was my official monthly weight in, I lost 5 pounds in the month of October and I have to admit, I am a bit disappointed in the results. I’m not upset at the loss, hey 5 pounds gone is never a bad thing, but with as hard as I worked I was really hoping for a bigger loss. Ten pounds I would have been ecstatic with.

I know I shouldn’t be concentrating on the scale as much as other things, but I need to see something to keep me motivated. Some have pointed at the fact that I’m weight training as the cause for the limited weight loss (only 30 pounds in 7 months). I do see a difference in my shoulders when look in the mirror; they are becoming defined a bit, but we have no full length mirrors in house so the chest up is all I can see. The stomach is still my major issue though. I don’t see much improvement at all in that area, although my girlfriend does. Why can’t I see it?

I don’t know, maybe I’m nit picking at myself or maybe I just need to go back to taking measurements. I’m just afraid motivation will start to taper off and I’ll go back to my old habits. Yesterday was a good example. I got off the scale and felt I let myself down. That led to a half ass lazy workout, and eating so much at dinner I felt sick.

Can someone say emotional eating? I guess I still have a ways to go in that area.

Today I obviously feel bad for the binge, no surprise there. I also know that I need to have a great workout today to get me back on track. So why is it I’m sitting here writing a blog post and trying to get motivated, instead of getting ready for the gym? Ugh…I’m really hoping I can turn things around today. I know I’m making some progress, I just look at where I am and I think…man, I am so far away from where I want to be.

I think a lot of this is fear talking. I just bought tickets to go home to see my family for the holidays. I’m really happy seeing that it’s been almost 12 years since I have spent a holiday with them (I’ve been home to visit since, but no holidays), but all I keep thinking about is one thing.

Will I need a seat belt extender when I get on the plane?

Seriously, this is what goes through my head. I have never used one, but there have been times when I just couldn’t get the belt snapped together and should have asked for an extension. Yup, I’m one that pretended to be buckled in when really I wasn’t. I suffer from a bit of social anxiety and the last thing I want is to be the center of attention by asking for the fat belt.

So this month I will be working even harder than last month, all so in early December I can hear one small goal…..”CLICK”. 

10 comments:

  1. I feel ya, Vinny! Motivation is tough...and sometimes you have to push on regardless of whether the motivation is there or not. Congrats on the 5 lbs lost! That's excellent...chin up! You can do this!

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  2. Vinny, don't be disappointed! Remember that this is a marathon and not a sprint. I know that society wants us to be thin like yesterday but in reality we can't accomplish all our goals today. It is going to take us some time. So losing 5 lbs is awesome and you are on the right track. I have no doubt that the seat belt will click! You got this!

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  3. Vinny - 5 lbs in a month is awesome progress! Definitely try not to be disappointed - take it from a slow loser over here. I would definitely recommend getting some other gauges of your progress to look at. Measurements are a great idea, or get a new pair of pants that don't quite fit and see how long it takes for them to fit, or take pictures when you weigh in (even if they're just for you) so you can visually check out the difference. That way when the scale disappoints you have other places to see the success.

    I totally relate to the seatbelt question too. It was a huge NSV the day I got on the plane and didn't need it! IF its not this time for you, than it will be next time no doubt!

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  4. Don't ever let a number get ya down Vinny. It may not be what you thought, but the fact is you're still working at it. Ups, downs, and all arounds will be there. What you do after is the important part. Keep on marching brother!

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  5. Ya know...this is why I blog. The great support from everyone is fantastic!! I know I shouldn't be down about the loss and I do have smaller goals to look at. Sometimes I just make the mistake of looking down that long road and say...UGH.

    All my readers are so great!!!

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  6. I know it's hard, but we HAVE to do it. Live or Die ONE CHOICE at a time. My new mantra. You CAN do it. Don't worry about the visit. Worry about what you are eating and how you are moving RIGHT NOW. If you do, that click will happen.

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  7. Slow & Steady sir... 5 pounds a month is 60 pounds a year (I have a calculator that says so)... if you lose 60 pounds by the end of next September'2011, will you be estatic? Well that is assuming you have 60 pounds you want to lose; you get my point I'm sure. Be proud of what you have done. Go for more if you want, but do not feel any less proud if all you ever do is 5 pounds a month.

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  8. Hey Vinny,

    I tagged you in my Day #159 post. Please check it out when you get a chance. Thanks!

    www.theheavymansdiary.blogspot.com

    - The Heavy Man

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  9. How has November been treating you?

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  10. Happy Thanksgiving my friend!!

    - The Heavy Man

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